Saturday, April 30, 2016

My Little Daughter

April 30, 2016

In August of this year my beautiful wife is set to deliver our daughter. When my wife first told me that she was pregnant I was stunned. But in a good way. We had been trying for awhile and finally it happened. We were both very excited. A couple weeks later we went in to find out the sex of the baby. We both just wanted a healthy baby, but we both were pushing for a boy. My two older brothers already had girls, so my wife had pretty much summed up that we were having one also. To me boys are easier. I think growing up a man in society is easy. Here and there life gets hard, but overall women are the ones being judged all the time. A woman can't be a boss in the workplace without being criticized for how she got there. To no shock, we were told we are having a baby girl. That day Mia Juliette was given her name.
Today my wife is about 24 weeks so far. I've felt Mia kick already and it surprises me every time. Daily now I been thinking of what kind of woman she is going to be. Is she going to be athletic? Is she going to be smart? Is she going to be goofy like myself? My wife wants her to be in dance or gymnastics. I want her to be in basketball or soccer. My wife was a dancer all the way thru high school. I love playing sports. I've even looked up ballet classes for toddlers. Yeesh I've realized these activities can get expensive. You know you want the best for your children and right now this guy can dream. I want to give her the best chance to succeed in life.
I've thought about the personality traits I want her to have and the way I hope she will be. I want her to have my wives' personality. She isn't afraid to speak up and loves being the center of attention. Myself I can't talk in front of people without freaking out. I want her to have my goofiness. I'm a big goofball when it comes to my close friends and family. Humor is a big part of my life, I enjoy making people laugh and seeing people smile. My wife wants her to have my skinny genes. Throughout my life I've had a very small waist, even though I've eaten more then I should. The one trait I really hope and I'm pushing for is, I hope she is strong. Now I don't mean physically (even though it wouldn't hurt), but mentality.
One thing I don't want for her is to be walked on by people. I want her to be able to stand strong even in the face of adversity. This brings me back to women having harder lives. Women have to be a perfect. They have to be good at being a Mom, a worker, and look like a model at the same time. They can't show weakness without be criticized. I want her to be able to take care of herself and not have to worry about someone carrying her through life. I know I'm going to be able to show her no matter what life hits you with, that as long as you have confidence no one will ever bring you down. But that if she does need help, that she can always come to me.
Mia isn't even here yet and I'm already worried about her. I know I love her so much and she is going to change my life. Thank you for reading.

Wednesday, December 2, 2015

A Little Part Of Me

December 2, 2015

This is my first blog so be easy on me. At this point of life, I am currently 23 years old and married with no kids. I am stationed in Jacksonville, FL with the United States Navy. I have been in for almost 5 years and have one more year to serve. This year has been a hard year for my family. I went through a deployment in which I have been away more then at home. Not only hard on myself, but for my wife.

A back story on us, we met senior year of high school in 2009. She went to a different school then myself, but we still met each other and started a long relationship. Not to be cheesy, but she is everything to me and will always be. We've both have spent a lot of time making our relationship work. At the end of the day we are happy and that is all that matters.

I've always been into writing, but never knew where to start. I am not a poet with words. I only want to write down what's going on my life to better recall later. Not a diary though. A reflection on what my life has become from where I started. I want to look back and read what it was like to be myself at this present time. To remember what I went through and what I would be going through.

The biggest thing to me right now is to find direction. I am on the edge not knowing where my life is going. I will be out of the Navy soon and with no True North to go. I know what I can do and I know what I want to do. I am a Computer Technician, but for me that's not what I was made for. I am pretty good at what I do though. For me, being someone important in this life is what I strive for. You want to be someone, so you can say you did something with your life. My wife always tells me she is so proud of me for serving and being the man that I am, but in my eyes I haven't done anything spectacular. I did my duty just as others have done. Maybe one of these days I will share what I want to do with my life with y'all. For now stay tune for more.....